Me, Myself & The World

2008-07-05T15:05:00.000-07:00

I don't demand but I'm hoing and I'm keeping my fingers crossed for the best for the month of July cos it's gonna be my birthday soon.

1) Home Fragrance from BodyShop
2) DVDs (Now She Move, Made of Honor, Game Plan, P.S I Love You, Dream Girls, Hitman, Transformers)
3) Wallet or Purse (perferabble square shape not long - cannot fit my pants)

You could also check out my list from my Multiply Blog or Friendser Blog.

2008-05-31T11:22:00.000-07:00

18 April 2008 1.23pm Office

What would happen when a person feels angry, sad, depressed, stressed out, tired, annoyed, irritated, not at peace, confused and in denial? It’s hard to say isn’t it? Why? Because all that’s mentioned are negative and bad influence and self distracting to oneself. You can call it ‘the silent killer’. It eats up one’s soul slowly without the person realizing it. By the time you’ve come to realize what has happened to you, it’s already too late. When it’s too late who’s there to blame? Your parents? Your friends? Those you’ve met once? Those you’ve smiled too? Or shake hands with? Who exactly is to be blamed? It’s very easy to point fingers at others. I agree on that. But what happens if you have to point the finger to yourself? Would you be brave enough? Or would you flee like a coward? Like a chicken running with their two feet ‘croo, croo…prk, prk…’

21 April 2008 8.42am Office

Did a mistake AGAIN? ARGH!!!!! What the hell is wrong with me? Made a resolution to be at least do a minimal mistake as I possibly can but apparently my fairy godmother didn’t grant me my wish. Or perhaps she didn’t hear me. Or worst my wish back fired. I can’t believe that my ‘supposedly’ year of rat is not working for me. I’m SOOOO not in the mood right now.

When your best becomes other's hatred...

2008-02-26T08:38:00.000-08:00

Last night I realised something, that there are people who actually listen to every word I say. Whatever advice I've given them, they took it into consideration. I'm grateful. I'm thankful. On top of it I'm speechless. This is the first time in my life that I've met people like these. WOW!

All these while, when I have to face people and give them a piece of my mind, they would condemn me. Like it's not enough by condemning but they add more 'salt and pepper'. I've never told them to follow 100% to what I've said or to be like me. I was just speaking my mind. They asked for my opinion and I gave them one. So why the attitude? Why the harsh words? Very confusing. Don't you think so? It makes me think whether I've hit my target or I was talking nonsense. Mmmm....???

Each and everyone of us is unique in own way. There can never be two of the same person in the worls. Even twins have their differences.

La la la la la... Better stop figuring out why all these people are acting like they are or else I'll be the one in trouble. And I surely do not want trouble in the year 2008. My year of the Wood Rat.

A different defination

2008-02-14T21:34:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day Everyone.....

The year 2008, year of the Wood Rat, in my case, is the year that I'm going to celebrate V-Day a little bit different. There wouldn't be romance movie marathon like previous years. Instead, I have options such as 1) Work 2) V-Day dinner at R2D2 & 3) Church meeting [or meeting that someone whom I've begin to be fond with]. To tell y'all the truth I want to do all of it but I only have to choose one, I know. Oh well, whatever I choose to do today will be the best for me *SMILE*

2008-01-26T13:52:00.000-08:00

I'm only in the first month of the year and good things have been happening. I'm actually still shocked at what happened (I'm not going mention it here - though you and you already know). I can't believe it. I still can't believe it. Sigh. More like still in denial. LOL. Enough of 'this' thing that happened. Yes. It is true that I'm eating my own words to go with the flow. And I'm kind of happy I did and took my girls' advice. There’s this thing that I couldn’t stop saying and the word is ‘but’. Ever since 'this' thing happened, I just couldnot stop the word but popping in my head. I could sense 'someone' is saying to me 'Stop thinking negative. Take the risk. Experience.' The worst part of it all, I'm facing me.

2008-01-12T16:24:00.000-08:00

With the girlfriends at Eve's house for Christmas Port-luck dinner and exchanging gift.

2008-01-10T12:38:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

WOW....Haven't been blogging far awhile. Reason being, lazy and lazy and lazy...Yeah that's the main reason.

Year 2007 has been a pretty 'ok' year for me. There were ups and downs. The ups will be my in happy memory box and the downs - in my recycle box. Why recycle? Because most of the downs are faults that I myself brought unto me and of cause some were made by others. I would love to brag about what others have done wrong to me but 'it's not good to talk bad about others, right?' So, it'll leave it as that.

The good things that happened:
1. Had a really good singing experience. Sang to the limits that I didn't know I could.

2. Had 2 really well organized birthday parties courtesy of the Yapp Clan and ECCC Youths.

3. Travelled to a foreign country without my parents. Woohoo...... Made new friends...

4. Experienced for real the latin dance at a club and sang at the club too.

5. Girls night out with my fav girls almost every week.

6. Pretty interesting Yapp Clan dinner and of cause the ever loudest Secret Santa gathering.

7. Christmas Mass was wonderful. Enjoyed it very much.

8. Had a wonderful Christmas dinner at Eve's place with food courtesy of the hostess and her guests.

9. Up-to-date I have 6 types of Absolut Vodka. 3 of which could not be bought in KK. Courtesy of my colleague. She helped to get me for me. Thank you Thank you...

Yeah... That's about it. I think.

Year 2008 - Year of the Rat (my year)
I'm really looking forward to this year not only because it's my year and I sense there'll be lots of happenings.

Planning to do the resolution list with the girls but I haven't had the time to meet up with them.

Planning to lose weight ( yeah Iive been saying this every new year)

2007-12-17T14:32:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ETHELDRED VIVIEN DUMPANGOL

2007-11-26T08:25:00.000-08:00

The lazy bug has attacked.... Oh boy, I'm really lazy updating my blog... not forgetting i have lots of pictures to share.... prehaps the pix i'll post it at my other blog la ah.... went to scoops at warisan on saturday with ethel... sinful gila ok that place....aiyo....'thanks thel for the treat' and we were told that we were cool..... hahaahahahah.......

2007-10-30T10:44:00.000-07:00

This Amir Yussof's first gig at First Beach Cafe, Tanjung Aru...

Note: I apologise for the bad colour to the picture. I'm not good at editting pictures. I also have a video of him singing but I have no idea how to upload it here.

2007-10-27T10:09:00.000-07:00

In 3 hours time, I will be leaving for Tuaran for work and leisure... I'm looking forward to it cos I'll be spending time with my colleagues who happens to be in the same league as I am. Will upload pictures once available. Speaking of which, I'm suppose to pose pictures of Amir Yussof's performance and also my Manila, Philippine trip, and some others.... Oh boy.....

2007-10-24T16:17:00.000-07:00

OH BOY!!! Haven't been blogging for a month now... I have SO much stories to tell and lots of pix to share but WHERE CAN I GET THE TIME TO DO SO?.....

All I can say is.....

PATIENCE!!!

2007-09-22T11:38:00.000-07:00

Amir Yussof's performance was relaxing, soothing AND romantic especially when he sang love songs. He sang songs that we know and some from his own album. But even though I wasn't familiar with his songs but hell, with a voice like that, I pretty much didn't care. Oh and he has a pretty good sense of humor too. I do have pictures of him and video but I have no idea how to upload it to my blog. Ethel, I need blogging lessons from you hehe.... He's performing again tonight but sadly I couldn't go. I have a singing session to do too. But cross my fingers that he will have future gigs.

Note: We will be going to Rumba again on Tuesday 25 Sept 2007. Therefore, Mami & Ibu, are you guys up for dancing? Cikgu, if you wanna join also can cause it's Lady's Night so we get free drink.

2007-09-19T17:05:00.000-07:00

I’ve always been told that the 3rd time is a charmer or it was sometime like that. Last night marks my 3rd time being in Rumba, Le Meridien KK and marks my 1st time dancing on the dance floor without being asked or invited. My 2nd time dancing (forced) was just for line dance which was easy cos I know the steps. Last night I got the chance to learn and dance a dance known as Bachata aka the ass dance and also a lil bit of Salsa, taught by the one of the lead singer. And I tell you it was fun. The Bachata was taught by this not-so-bad-looking Pilipino dance instructor. He smelled good (erm…) and he has fine ass LOL… Hey, it’s human nature. NO! I’m not a pervert.

Someone actually said, ‘No I’m not going to dance cos my feet hurts. Yeah right. After that 2nd drink, WOOHOO!! She can’t stop dancing no more. Last night was ALL about the dancing and free drinks. Cool. Free flow thanks to ‘our’ new anonymous friend. Girls, I know which one is our new friend already. Confirm.

Tonight will be with the girlfriends again. We’d be going to watch Amir Yussof live for a gig at Tanjung Aru First Beach Café. My social life is so back on the track.

Unbelievable

2007-09-06T10:28:00.000-07:00

Yesterday (05 September 2007), marks my 1st Year Anniversary with my currect company. So my new year resolution would be, less mistake and do more booking to get more $$$. Other meaning would be, NO SOCIAL LIFE.....NOOOOO!!!!!..... I need a drink or maybe I need ice-cream *wink, wink*...

Help me to help me lose some more weight. I've gained 2 kg people. Wisma Merdeka is BAD I tell you. Argh... All my effort of losing weight is gone. How do I start over? Of cos, right now I can't afford Herbalife (yes I used to have it before), other food supplement I don't know what brand is good. But can I lose weight without burning my pocket SOOO much?

2007-08-31T01:50:00.000-07:00

MERDEKA!!!!! No I'm not THAT patriotic. I'm just being sarcastic. If I were still studying I'd on public holiday. If I were working with the goverment, I'd be on public holiday. If I were working for a private company, I'd be on a public holiday too. What would I be doing? I'd be at home sleeping and watching television or the night before, I'd be drinking my Absolut Vodka Apeach. But I'm NOT. I'm at work. That's what you get for working in the tourism industry. Public holiday means nothing. Sigh.

2007-08-21T01:30:00.000-07:00

This blog is still alive. I haven't kill it yet. My FS blog is actually for those who are in my friend's list. This blog is for my crazy & loud family and of cos my one and only loyal best friend who is keen enough to drop by everytime she goes online. So yeah, do drop by when you have the time but my apology for late updates.

P/S: CONGRATUALATIONS to Etheldred Vivien Dumpangol for obtaining a job. Now all of us can start saving and we proceed for our project next year *wink*

2007-08-16T11:56:00.000-07:00

ABSOLUT VODKA APEACH ANYONE????? or HOW ABOUT A MARGARITA? (TRIPLE SEC INCLUDED) or maybe PINEAPLLE MALIBU UNDER THE SEA? ...............

2007-07-13T12:43:00.000-07:00

Warming up with gin rummy....

Getting ready for Cranium... Very funny game especially when someone had to do star performance....

Happy Birthday to me... Homemade Baked Cheese Cake with Sour Cream...Yummers..... Thank you Ibu Abelle...

THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR THE 'SURPRICE' PARTY.....

2007-07-02T14:31:00.000-07:00

It's the month of July. My month.......

Here's my pressie wish list:

1. DVD (Blood & Chocolate, Casino Royale, Wild Hogs, Charlotte's Web, Dejavu, Bridge To Terabithia, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle, Blades of Glory, Epic Movie, Lucky You, Pirates of the Caribbean 1, 2 & 3)

Thank you very much.....

Everything is over... What next?

2007-06-21T19:53:00.000-07:00

The whole process of endless nights and singing practise every single night is finally over. But what next? This question keeps on repeating in my head and it's haunting me. One night of no singing kind of bores me. The only things that keep me going now would be cells group and gathering.

Social life? Erm... Only movies. But who would wanna go and watch it alone right? Movies to look forward too, Transformers and Surf's Up. That's the only 2 movies that I could think of at the moment.

I'm actually looking forward for next month cause my best friend would be back from NZ. Can't wait for our F&B time and of cos mengumpat time LOL.....

2007-05-26T16:02:00.000-07:00

I have a special request for those who are going for a holiday this end of MAY.

For those who are going to be at the Philipines, please bring back for me the Golden Mango Puree. You can get it from the airport. It will cost you $2.50 per box.

For those who are going to be at Bali, lets make it as an early brithday present. Get me pressies please...heheheh...

OOOiiiiii!!!!!!!

2007-05-19T15:31:00.000-07:00

How to work when the electricity keeps on going off and the air condition is not working??? Teeeeell Meeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Right at this moment I'm pretty much irritated and also very sleepy because of the heat.

Hungry hungry hungry. Why? Because I didn't have lunch because I'm starving myself because I'm having tonight with my crazy and loud 'kakies' at Shangri-La's Tanjung Aru Resort.

2007-04-28T19:22:00.000-07:00

I don't even know you and yet you comment on my blog. ISH... Adakah patut... Well, not that I don't know you la. I do know who's your borther and father but not you. Get what I mean? People, I'm not referring to this blog. I meant my friendster blog.

I missed a lot of gathering and get togethers with the 'aunties'... and YES, Toy, I'm jealous looking at your pictures. It made me VERY thirsty, mind you. Every time they have get togethers, I'll be the one who will NOT turn up...sigh... And yet I'm complaining about not having a social life. Yes yes I know I owe one aunty starbucks date. Got expiry date somemore her offer. How la that ah?

2007-04-05T20:31:00.001-07:00

I'm really not being myself lately. Maybe it has something to do with my surroundings. I'm 60% sure of it. It's a really LOOOOONG story that needs coffee and cakes *smirk*

I've heard SOOOOO much story about you that I came to realise that it is actually true. All this while you made me think that you're the angel and they are the evil ones. But now it's all slowly changing colour.

I'm saying this because it's actually happening to me bit by bit and it's draining out all the smiles, laughters and cheerfulness in me. Feels very bad really bad. I used to be a very cheerful, fun and bubbly person...prasan...Always smiling and cracking jokes...prasan...But now I'm always moody, think too much and gets irritated or annoyed easily. All because of.....

Come to think of it, I can't wait for the tours and mini concert to get back on the road. Cos I'm sure the real me will resurface again... LOL ... S.T.U.P.D!!!

2007-03-13T09:00:00.000-07:00

This is me during the Musical Concert. I can't even recognise myself. Makeup artist Martin Buguk & team. They are the ones who do makeups for the beauty contestant during Harvest Festival.

2007-03-13T08:49:00.000-07:00

Alrighty then people. Here is the picture that ALL of you have been waiting for...

2007 Year of the oink oink theme Flower Power

2007-02-28T14:25:00.000-08:00

I'm so lazy to update my blog even though I have a lot of stories to share especially during the CNY and also what's happening in my workplace. Pictures also I haven't had the chance to transfer and people are chasing me for me.

I loved Music and Lyris. Love the song 'A way back into love' from that movie. Sung by Drew Barrymore and Hugh Grant. Went to watch it with Cigu and it was simply hilarious and romantic. There were four guys sitting at our row and we thought that they were in the wrong cinema. However, we were wrong cause they laughed harder than us.

Movies that I want to watch are Ghost Rider, Dreamgirls and Blood & Chocolate.

2007-02-10T11:29:00.000-08:00

It's coming to an end which is a relieve...DEEP BREATH... but come to think of it, I'll be missing all of it. The nights where I get to hang out with the musicians and singers and 'obintigog' people. Missing the tuneless times when we would stare at each other and laugh about it. Will be missing the laughs. But most of all will be missing the singing...sigh...

No people. I've not fully recovered yet. Still a little bit stuck here and there. Whatever happens tomorrow I'm putting it all into HIS hands. Enough said.

CNY is just around the corner and I haven't prepare anything yet. My gaji belum masuk ba. Mau mati sudah sia nie.

Current mood... Worried...

2007-02-03T16:28:00.000-08:00

Didn't I mention about putting up pictures of the gifts that I've received for Xmas? Hah... I guess it's too late now since Xmas is waaay over.

Office politics is really bad. Isn't it? It could eat you alive, tear you apart and kill you slowly or worst still lose your job. Why am I saying this? Ahuh... Yup. It's happening right here at my work place. I on the other just act DUMB. Cause the more I think about it. The more headache I'll get. Suka hati kamurang la...

From my title all of you will have questions. Yes? No? I'm sick and I need to use my vocal chords tomorrow night for the P&W Tour. How ah? I die la this. I die la this. Not forgetting the intensive practise we're having until the coming Musical Concert which will be held on the 11 Feb and yes need to use vocal chords again. Wouldn't you be worried if you were in my shoes? Another thing to worry would be my weight cause I think I'm gaining it all back. Yup. All the effort gone. Thus, clothes for CNY would be hard to find.

The weather hasn't been nice either. It's like rain, hot, hooooot,raaaaain,rain, hot and again and again it goes. What's that movie called again? The Lord must be crazy. I agree. Struck by the lightning...touch wood...

Activities for CNY would be Gin and ................... Fill in the blank people. Gin table please. I dunno where to get and I have no time.

Rain, rain go away... It's making me depress...

2007-01-26T15:46:00.000-08:00

I have lots of things to blog about but I'm really lazy to do so. Even though there's free Internet access in the office but I'm still lazy to do it. Pendek kata... AKU MALAS...

But still I have to tell stories cos there are people out there who don't see me that often anymore wants to know about my life's progress. Working life has been really tiring for me especially with the church activities happening almost everynight. Thus, waking up in the morning is ****. Right now all I could wish for is to hybernate like a bear. Do pandas hybernate? Because if they do, then I'd like to join them. My dark circles have gotten worst. My weight has gotten even worst especially now that I don't eat that much and I skip meals. According to my 'coach' I have to have discipline to go on dieting. SIGH.

Even my social life is not happening. I missed dinner with my crazy and loud family. Movies also out. Ish.... And yet when I complain to some people that I don't have a social life,they will say that i hangout with them and I sing. HELLO!!! My definition of social life is that it has NOTHING to do with church activities.

My New Years resolution for 2007 is to be bad because in 2006 I was picked on and my head was being stomp by colleagues, friends, church members and the worst was from family members. Family members I tell you. My resolution is actually working because there are people complaining by saying 'Jahat oh you', 'Bad oh you'... However, despite that I'm more evil to others there are those who don't get enough of it and they come back for more. I guess it's true what people say. If you are nice, things will be harder. Where as if you are bad, things will be a lot more easier.

2007-01-08T14:15:00.000-08:00

The Internet line at home is bad due to the earthquake in Taiwan but now everywhere else the Internet line is super fine except for my house. I so lazy to call lor but if I don't call then I'll be paying for nothing, right? Did I ever mention that I'm involved in a concert and we have tours? I think I did but I have no idea which post. Oh well, no trouble mentioning it again right? It's so obvious that I have nothing to blog about right?

Q: Why do people hate/dislike me?

Q: What is there to be jealous of me?

Q: Why am I the main attraction?

Q: What do people see in me that makes them have high expectations?

Q: Is it wrong to like someone whom your friend likes too?

Q: Can I have more time so that I'm able to do the things that I want to do?

Please fell free to answer the questions above...

2007-01-02T09:43:00.000-08:00

I missed something for the year 2006. I forgot to wish everyone a Blessed Christmas. Yeah I know. It's kinda TLL but the last day of Christmas is on the 7 of January which means I'm not late at all.

Happy New Year 2007 to everyone...doi macam repeating ja nie sentence... I don't have any new year resolution. All I can do for this year is 'just go with the flow'... Had a pretty good new year. More like a tiring one but it's all good. Had BBQ and wine and too much food. The exchanging gift was fun. Even though it was just simple gifts but hey it's for fun and we sure had a good one. 5 of my guest went home at 8am on 1st Jan. WHAT? WHY? Well, they did movie marathon, 3 movies which started at 2.30am.

Oh wait, I still owe all of you pictures right? Mmm...Let me see. When am I free to do it... Sorry folks no free time...

Note: Yes I'm in the office on a public holiday... Thank you Cikgu for the wines...

2006-12-23T10:23:00.000-08:00

Received a Christmas parcel all the way from NZ. Thank you so much Ethel. Loved the LOTR stamps and envelope. But sad the pendant to my neckalce was broken. I'm blaming the people that handled my parcel cause I'm guessing they were VERY rough. Aiyo, I'm suppose to blog the pictures right? Mmm....

2006-12-21T12:54:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RACHEL MARIAM YAPP!

Had dinner at Tatu Cafe at Shangri-La's Tanjung Aru Beach Resort with the loudest evermore craziest people in my family. We were like scavengers...NOT...LOL...awal-awal sudah kena suruh behave...But when all the other left and we were the only ones left, we were laughing and talking about girly 'stuffs'...if you knwo what I mean...Oh and someone forgot that she's already back in KK so.....

2006-12-17T13:20:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ETHELDRED VIVIEN DUMPANGOL!

Had the exchanging gift last night at Country Heights R2-(D)2 with the evermore loudest & craziest people that I love. Oh... And not forgetting the cutest Peanuts. Had good food and drinks. The gifts were great. I got 2 items from my list thanks to A.Ruth. I wanna watch my Chirstmas cd but when will I be able to watch my Sister Act? I don't know. Picture of last nights gathering, you'll have to wait for Cikgu to update her blog. Itu pun the gambar like after after already... Teda la yang before and after... And it has been going on like that every time we're at R2-(D)2...

It's a Sunday and I'm at the office blogging...

2006-12-12T19:43:00.000-08:00

If you happen to get the Chirstmas exchanging gift list without a name, it would be either mine or A.Ruth's... I wonder which gift I'll be getting for this Christmas... Mmm.... I'm excited about this Christmas and worried as well because I have 3 exchanging gift to do which means it could burn out my pocket and of cos I need to get gifts for my family.

Can anyone tell what gift can I buy that's unisex? I need suggestions. Erm, the limit of the gift is RM10.00 only. Don't ask me why so cheap cos some of these people are still schooling. But for now, I just need suggestions. Suggest please.....

Note: Thank you A.Lulu for the M&S.

2006-12-01T14:31:00.000-08:00

Wow, my blog is the bangas-est blog ever....wuahahahaha....Ok I'm going crazy...Yeah I'm in office again on a Saturday practically doing nothing or more like doing filing since it's the early of the month so have to tagih utang from our clients.....the office is very quiet dunno why...it's making me sleepy....aiyo....dunno what to write leh.....oh yeah, i forgot to wish ASTRA IMELDA ELIZABETH YAPP YING YING happy birthday on the 23rd November...kuang kuang kuang....some people I know just got back form their holidays and i heard overloaded....kekekekeke....well, they had fun and i have some stuffs too.....

My baby fren is back from NZ but I haven't had the time to hang with her yet. yaMaklum la orang yang kerja from Monday to Sunday. Not only that, I've also been busy with touring....aiseh....artist ba kunun....artist for church.....kuahahahaahah...........time to surf the net.......

2006-10-26T17:20:00.000-07:00

I lost my mum's handphone with my DIGI sim card in it. How did I lose it? Well, I left the phone on my bed and went to work without bringing it. Upon arriving at Magellan car park, I checked my bag cos I felt like I've forgotten to bring something. Since this was the second time I left my phone on my bed forgetting to bring it, I was confident that when I get home I'll find the phone on my bed la. However, that's not what happened when I got home. The phone was not on my bed. So, we called my number and there was no ringing but there was vibrating sound in my room. Mum, dad, Lia and I was busy looking for it. Then when I called my number, either it was no battery or someone or something switched it off.

Luckily I registered my number, so I could retrieve my number back. Using the NOKIA 3310 and the phone is really really bad. Some say, there's a toyol in my room. Some say, it's time for me to clean my room. And some say, it's time for me to buy new phone (anyone has a recommendation for phones?). So which one is it? I don't know.

You can call me through my Digi number but the Maxis will be put to rest at the moment till i get a new phone or I find the lost phone.

2006-10-26T16:33:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya to all relatives and friends who's celebrating. To those I know and don't. To those whom I used to know and remembers me. Who used to call me friend. Ok I'm writing nonsense. What I got for Raya was, a visit to the clinic and 5 really nice medicine in pink, green, lime green, yellow and peach in colour. Yes I'm sick.

2006-10-19T16:17:00.000-07:00

At 0930 hours, tranfer from your hotel in Kota Kinabalu to Tanjung Aru Railway Station for a ride in the only steam locomotive in Borneo. The colonial train ride stops at Papar for sightseeing. On th return trip, lunch is served on board. After tour, transfer back to your hotel.

You guys must be wondering why I'm putting up this itinerary. Well, this is one of our tour and we(my workmates and I) went for it. We had a hell of a ride. Slow on the way to Papar. But on the way backto Tanjung Aru. It was like eating in the boat cos it was really shaky and bumpy. I did take some pictures. I haven't upload it yet. It's still in the digi camera. Lazy too upload.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MUM on the 17 October 2006.

2006-10-14T13:46:00.000-07:00

I'm in the office on a Saturday practically doing nothing. There's only 5 of us here in my dept and it's kind of quiet here except for my music that's almost blasting...aiya...boss just came it, oh well he doesn't know that I'm blogging anyway...LOL... I'm actually dragging my time doing my work. I'm sooo lazy to do it. It's has only been a month that I'm working for the company. Bad really bad. Sleepy some more. Sigh.

I haven't been to the Pasar Ramadhan yet and I would like to go and kepoh on all the food that they have. Went shopping last night and I enjoyed buying things. I wanna go again as I haven't finish my shopping yet. Maybe next week. Now I need to get back to work. Man I'm hungry. I wander what happened to my delivery person...

2006-10-07T11:43:00.000-07:00

I was in denial when T called and told me that a close uncle of mine and his son passed away. I was shocked and speechless. I really didn’t know what was I suppose to do or who to call. After I called up A.R, I went to the toilet and cried. Returned call to A.P and C and they confirmed the news. I just couldn’t stop from replaying the news in my brain. From work, head home to change and went straight to N.U’s place. Seeing her there sitting and crying and weak just breaks my heart. T and I didn’t stay there for long cause there wasn’t much to do. When I got home, I was really determine to inform my parents as I was pressured by the Akungs to inform them. Not that I blame them for doing so. At last I managed to leave a message for them and they returned my call. They were shocked at the news too. Mum and Papa were crying over the phone. After the call, I went to my parent’s room and cried til I couldn’t cry anymore. A friend of mine told me to pray for their souls and that’s what I did. Went to the pray room and prayed for their souls and I was crying again. After that, took my bath and slept. Right now, my eyes are a bit swollen and my panda eyes have gotten worst.

Prayer for the Deceased Person

Almighty Father, eternal God, hear our prayers for Your sons Uncle Henny and Neville whom You have called from this life to Yourself. Grant them light, happiness, and peace. Let them pass in safety through the gates of death, and live forever with all Your saints in the light You promised to Abraham and to all his descendants in faith. Guard them from all harm and on that great day of resurrection and reward raise them up with all Your saints. Pardon their sins and give them eternal life in Your kingdom. We ask this through Christ our Lord. Amen.

It just got me thinking, are dreams important because Popo dreamt that Mummy was pushing a coffin of someone we knew. However, the person who passed is not who is in the dream but the above names mentioned. Is it a coincidence or is it some kind of a sign? What do you guys think? Drop a few line.

2006-10-05T18:17:00.000-07:00

The haze has been really bad here. You can't hardly see outside but of cause you can still your hand if u stretch it out. For the past 2 weeks it has been pouring. The gods must be crazy. Luckily this morning it shined...so happy lor...By the way, I'm blogging from the office...'menyalahgunakan barangan pejabat'....but who cares...everyone's doing it...and besides I'm only doing it after office hours...nothing much to say except I'm DEADLY broke....

Oh yeah, haven't told you guys about my office environment, right? Well it looks like an office and there's computer for everyone and their own shelves. My workmates are well crazy...will explain more about them when I have the time and mind to do so. Right now I wanna go home...

2006-09-29T17:29:00.000-07:00

WOW... My blog is really out dated. Can be crowned as the bangas-ess blog already, which I was hinted the other by one 'aunty' who refused to be called aunty by me. Nothing much happened except been busy with my working life until I have no time for my social life and drinking sessions. Looks like I'll be kicked out of the AA club soon. Go shopping for working clothes also no time. When I do go, with the wrong crowd...sigh... Office politic is still going on by the way but I got over it. Whatever they want to say, just go ahead. Be my guest.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALVIRA VERONIE MANGGALA ON 19 SEPTEMBER 2006.

2006-09-16T22:30:00.000-07:00

Actually, I've written a long entry then suddenly my surroundings became dark... *&^%&... There goes my effort updating my blog. I'm officially working for the same company where I did my practical for the past 2 months. Only I'm not at the same department. I'm at the reservations department where I'm dealing with international agents. Cause of this there were some people who were sad and pissed off. Erm... They call it office politic I think... or whatever la... yang I know I feel like kena psychologically abused... But hearing all this from my so-called previous department made me sort of guilty.... I hates oh....... Oh well, work is work and I need the pay... Lets just put it this way la.... My office is at Magellan so I can cuci mata again...

Is that all I have to update? Erm.... Macam got some more but I can't remember what...

HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY TO ISAIAH REILLY SEET @ PEANUTS! on th 10th September 2006

After sometime

2006-08-20T23:53:00.000-07:00

Mmm...I haven't been a good blogger have I? Haven't been updating which made a couple of people go 'your blog ah, like sooooo long long time ago, update la'....Still working and I have about 2 weeks to go before my contract ends on the 2nd of Sept. After that, I'll be free and not working. BUT, since I enjoy working for the company, I'll be sending in my resume soon. I would definately like to be posted at Nexus resort because I can cuci mata... Bahagia babes, don't blame me, blame the hormones. Slept at Country Heights last night and had 2 shots of vodka cos there was only 1 can of 7up. After 3 glasses of JD plus the vodka, hangover attack the next day. It was my first ever hangover experience...kuang kuang kuang....

2006-07-30T00:41:00.000-07:00

my first bday pressies from cigu and a. cak cak.......

All these i got it from a. ah luth....
This from a.abiau...adding to my total collection of 24 earrings..
my first handbag... this i received from eve, my gang keras...and the ribbon she ikat, punya susah mau buka....
my first bday card and second present from my church choir members....
got these from totoy........

From me to you

2006-07-15T15:35:00.000-07:00

I would like to thank everyone for their birthday wishes, smses and emails. Don't want to name, names because I might miss some of them. So here it is, from me to you,

THANK YOU!

2006-07-11T20:47:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SIMONE REBECCA

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

2006-07-10T23:58:00.000-07:00

I was given an early birthday suprise by some of my choir members. Didn't see it coming and didn't even got the hint. Even my parents kept quiet about it. Shocked man. Thank you SaSa, TeTe, ReRe and ChiChi. They're still here hanging out while I'm updating.

2006-07-10T23:46:00.000-07:00

Went for dinner with the crazy and loud people that I love. Had dinner at Luna Rossa. The food was (no offence to the person who suggested there) LOUSY and EXPENSIVE. After that went for dessert at Benito Bistro and we had the Chocolate Muffin. After the first taste, those who was having it became SUPER loud and couldn't stop laughing. Luckily, we were the only ones there. After sometime, MIGRAINE attack. For me the pain was worth it but I don't think I'll be having it anytime soon.

2006-07-10T22:05:00.000-07:00

It's not that I don't like answering questions about where I'm working/doing my practical but I do get bored answering them. I'm doing this entry about my job/practical so that the next person who ask me about it, I could just say 'Please find the time to read my blog if you want to know more about it :)'

My company is called Wildlife Expeditions Sdn. Bhd. This company deals with tours around Sabah and they have outlets at all major hotels in KK, other districts and international agents. Our main operation in KK are going to Poring, Kinabalu Park, City Tours, Seafood dinner, Guest transfers and etc. During my first week I was placed at the main headquarters which is in Lido, next to the Jabatan Air, more accurate near Lues Clues house. I'm enjoying it, as of this moment, even though the office is hot because the air-con is being serviced. Despite the heat, I'm lucky to have such crazy, loud and fun singing workmates. In the office all day, there's sure to be laughters and smiles. This week, I'll be posted at KKIA (airport) office and I do hope that I'll get the chance to be the company rep even for one day. I want to meet the orang putihs and pok silaps ekekekekekeke............. So there you have it.

2006-07-10T20:36:00.000-07:00

Oh and by the way, I would like to add some more things to my birthday list,
6. Silky Girl lip gloss (RM9.90)
7. Socks from Sox World
8. Hair scrunchy (no maroon or yellow colour)
9. Hair chopsticks (which I broke 3 of it already)

P/S: It's actually Palmolive Aroma Therapy Shower Gel (Refill) I wanted either Energy or Anti-Stress. If the refill is costly, May soap bar Green Tea. Thank you.

Parental Advisory

2006-07-07T23:30:00.000-07:00

I hate having these negative feelings in me because it's bad for me and those around me. I'll start screaming or saying bad words and it happened today. Right now I really don't care what you think of me. I don't care if you feel cheated. I REALLY DON'T CARE because you don't seem to care how I feel when you do something wrong towards me. What assumptions have I made that is wrong? For all I know, I don't assume. When I'm assuming, I'll say it out, I assume ... But right now, I'm not assuming anything because it happened right in front of my eyes and it's STILL happening. So, what assumptions are there?

To call you stupid, I don't think that's appropriate because you have proper education and I'm very sure your parents thought you about life very well. What went wrong? Or where did it go wrong?

Why do some people can't see everything from left to right, up and down and vise versa? Why can't they take a minute and think of the other persons point of view or their feelings? Can't they NOT think of themselves for one second? I guess not. Maybe I should be like them. Then I would be happy always. No worries. No problems. Only think of myself. That wouldn't be so bad. Right?

I hate it when you say you are NOT doing it but actually YOU ARE. I don't know whether you don't realise it or you're just being in denial. Is it that bad when someone close to you corrects you? FUCK!!! You people always say these, 'Simone is kind', 'She's caring', 'She's an angel', to me it's all BULLSHIT! Why? What's the point of saying all these when you have NO heart at all to do anything with me? How do you think that makes me feel? I'll tell you. I'm FUCKIN PISSED OFF, I feel taken for granted, heartbroken, hurt and mad. I feel dysfunctional right now. I don't know what else should I think or feel because it hurts so bad. It's like I'm in a garden full of blooming rare flowers then suddenly all the flowers wilts and dies and falls and my surrounding turns into dark and cold and scary.

'Sorry seems to be the hardest word'. Really? But for you it's really easy to say it out. I wonder whether it comes from sincerity from within or it's just..........

STOP TELLING ME!!!!! I know I should forget about all that have been said here but will it heal completely or will it leave a scar?

2006-07-02T18:37:00.000-07:00

A close friend of mine who is currently studying in New Zealand sent me a photo of hers enjoying the snow. I'm sooooo jealous. I can tell you that. I wonder when I'll get the chance to enjoy the snow. Nette: Is it possible for you to bring back the snow for me?

A very close friend of mine, Ethel, left for New Zealand today. Went to the airport to see her off. Will be missing her lots cause I've been hanging out with her quite often since the both of us got back from KL. And even when she was in KL and I was here in KK, we would keep in touch by sms or sometimes when both of us have more credit to spend we would call each other. I, on the other loved writing her letters and emailing her. Above all that, I wish her the best of luck. Take good care of yourself and have fun while you're there.

It's the month of July. Time passes really fast. And in this month, I'll be a year old again. Not that I'm complaining, well maybe a bit, but this time it's gonna be different. I hope. Cause I'll be 3 years from being a quarter century old.
Here, I would like give my birthday present list:
1). Hand wash from Watsons (it's buy 1 free 1 mah)
2). Handbag
3). A bottle of any liquor
4). Nemo doll (which I've wanted for sooo long)
5). Sister Act 1 or 2 vcd(original please ekeke) or dvd(ciplak version is just fine with me)

2006-06-30T21:30:00.000-07:00

Been to the toilet 5 times today. Been having bad tummy pain. Not so sure what did I eat. Despite all that, I had a very interesting week. On Sunday night it rained cats and dogs and on Monday morning it flooded. Tuesday night I went for a small gathering at Hedzal's house in Tg Aru. It was a really fun night for me. Came back home at 2am without being scolded (WooHoo)...We had sooo much food that we had to come back the next day for lunch. Even that didn't finish our food. Wednesday night continued drinking again at Dabak. The Rasberry Vodka tasted good. Yesterday we had our farewell party since all of us will be starting our practical on Monday. Our farewell was really interesting. Our 4 lectures were really sporting. They played all our games. I became the camera lady for the day. Will sure miss bullying the lecturers and hearing their stories. Last night went out for dinner with Ethel and Eve at Damai. We had a really long chat and it was fun updating each other with our own stories. Especially me with my 'teman tapi mesra' topic and because of that I had to answer lots of questions. Luckily Ethel and Eve was not shy in asking. I mean, we have been friend for more than 10 years so I guess it's only natural that there's no secrets between us but 'deep dark secrets', lets just leave it to that way. Ok? This morning, we had our last class. Felt a lil bit sad. Will be missing some of them. But the most suprising thing happened. A friend who was close to me and then suddenly didn't want to talk to me, came up to me and hugged me.

2006-06-21T00:35:00.000-07:00

I'll let the picture do the talking...

I can hear people screaming 'UPDATE YOUR BLOG!!!!!' I have lots of things to share. Really. But time is not on my side lately. Been busy attending class, as usual, and giving tuition. Yes. You heard right. Enough questions. Headache...

2006-06-05T21:09:00.000-07:00

The SUPER CUTE GORONGOT Peanuts.....
Aaahhhhh..... Clean and adorable...

I'm feeling a little bit out-dated cause the latest movie I've seen was X-Men (if you want to go, go - kuang kuang kuang). I still have lots of movies to watch such as (wait, let me take the newspaper first) Over The Hedge, Tipah Tertipu-Malay (wanna watch this cause the actors are from a Msian music group) , We Are Family-Cant (from the trailer it looks like a funny movie) , Benchwarmers (according to Ethel it's a super funny movie) , 16 Block (according to another friend of mine, Vencis, it's not a bad movie to watch) and some other movies.

So many things to do in so little time. Been hanging with my SUPER COOL & HAPPENING aunts...LOL...

To Ethel: Will try to go out this week... I'll make it up to you, promise.

2006-06-05T20:25:00.000-07:00

~ Malibu Pineapple under the sea ~

These was what we had on the 29th of May in my house.

After 2 shots os kahlua, someone went 'I love pickles, I love pickles' and 'Izou suka kon no meeen'...

Other one went, 'Malibu Pineapple under the sea' and again and again and again til someone had to say 'SHUT UP!'

I do HAVE the VIDEOS to these 2 incidents but I'm too young to die.

On Tuesday, I had 4 glasses of Martini and Malibu on the rocks and 2 glasses of Vodka and Sprite.

Wednesday, stuffed maself with good food and ONLY 1 glass of Vodka and Sprite. Vodka with 50% of alcohol and yes, I fell asleep on the couch.

Thursday, became a good girl and stayed home (I think cause I can't quite remember).

Friday, went for dinner at 4 seasons with Astwa and A.Lues Clues, then picked up Cikgu and went to Blue Note, Star Hotel, Tg Aru and had 10++ glasses of Chivas with Coke. Stayed til they stopped the music and turned on the lights. THANK YOU to the Lues Clues for the night.

The End!!!!

2006-05-31T23:15:00.000-07:00

Ok, I know my entries haven't been long or interesting lately. It's just that I'm on a writers block 'NOT!'. Well, more of a laziness attack. Not only that but my house is in a mess cause its being painted inside out and it smells horrible. Ewww.... You guys get the whole scenario, right? My place was an island on Sunday night luckily the rain stopped.

Kotobian Tadau Tagazo Do Kaamatan kumaa doid diozu. It's the Harvest Festival today but I didn't go for the celebration at KDCA. I don't feel like being in an over crowded place. I only went twice to celebrate. First was with my gang keras when we were still in high school and the second was with my college mates and my car radio was stolen. So, no more. But if I do go (in the future that is), I'd let other people do the driving or just take the bus. Besides, I had better things to do. Kunun la. I spent a whole lot of time with my loved ones. We had sooo much fun laughing and just hanging out.

My 3 days of holiday was filled with laughters and a whole lot of alcohol. Drinking session started at my place on monday night. The drinks were delicious and the company was better. I've never seen some people go totally out of their league and it WAS fun watching them going crazy. LOL. I even caught some of the acts on CAMERA...*evil smile*. Of cause my house, 'Welcome to hotel de la Simone' again. Since my room is being painted so I had to stay at Cikgu's place. There we continued drinking again. Suppose to play gin but tidak sukup kaki so we started off drinking and chit-chatting and drink again. Tried to make margarita but it didn't turn out well. Better luck next time. Today, I stuffed myself with good food at my cousins house and she gave me a drink again. So, all in all, 3 days of drinking and the worst part is I GAINED WEIGHT...Aiya...

2006-05-29T01:10:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AUNTY SELINA! On the 24th of May 2006.

HAPPY BIRHTDAY TO TOTOY & UNCLE GORDON! On the 25th of May 2006.

2006-05-22T21:45:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO VELARIE! On the 21st of May 2006.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KENNY! Today.....

2006-05-20T03:16:00.000-07:00

Sunday: Went for movie, Poseidon. The movie was ok. Ada la juga suspense dia. But luckily I wasn't sitting next to Astwa...ekeke...

Monday: Yam cha session with my gang keras at Yoyo. Then I realised something on that night. How much I'm gonna miss one of them cos whenever we're together, we always come to this place. It's one of our common hangout place besides Ching Fa. How alone I'll be? Ok I'm being dramatic...ekeke...

HAPPY BITHRDAY TO HENRY aka WEYRER! On the 15th of May 2006.

Tuesday: Lepaked at Kinamount then Astra and I went downloading crazy with Indon songs while Cigu was sleeping.

Best downloading moment:
Cigu: Download for me the song 'September Rain'
Me: Don't have. Only have 'reading the list given'.....
Astwa: What song ba this?
Cigu: The one the video clip got couple and then he went to war that.
Astwa and I: 'screaming' not september rain la that. the title is wake me up when september rains by greenday...LOL...

Best chatting moment: Was making fun of our 'sexy mama' as Astwa loves calling her.

At night went to Egypt in Donggongon Square with the gang keras and their significant other and their friends. Weird combination of ex-Michaelians, Franciscans and La-Sallians.

Wednesday: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EVE AND JO! On the 17th of may 2006

Thursday: Visited the Bird Sanctuary in Signal Hill. It was a fun outing with the whole class. After that we(Hazel, TJ, Mecy, Ken, Hilary, Vencis & I) went for K-Box at CP 8th flr. It was one hilarious aramatii session.

Saturday: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RUTH MARAJIN! On the 2oth of May 2006.

2006-05-13T23:41:00.000-07:00

Gin rummy session (X), drinking session (/) - not up to the level of AA yet.
Was supposed to watch Silent Hill but someone was not keen since she was driving home alone, so ended up watching Scary Movie 4. Budu punya wayang. The best part Astra was NOT called home. Woohoo... ~Welcome to Hotel de Simone~ Yup. U guessed right. They slept over. I for one suffer from backache cos I slept on our 'new' wooden sofa. Felt like sleeping on rock. Aduuuuuiii..................

2006-05-12T23:19:00.000-07:00

One day I'm trigger happy and the next I'm blur. Weird eh? Must be because of the weather. Blamin' it all on the weather man. Today itself the weather is really hot. Last night was a happening night for me. We had the singles female cells group at my house. After that we stuffed ourselves with food and finally did a movie marathon from 10pm til 6am in the morning. Watched Supernatural and Hex on AXN, then Ghost of Nang Nak, Wedding Date and Howl's Moving Castle. Continued with breakfast at 6:30am then sent some of the members home, took my bath and slept til 4pm. Woke up just in time for tea time and then it was time for me to prepare for dinner. Yes. U heard right. I cooked dinner today.

There'll be drinking and gambling session at my place tonight but I'm not sure what time we'll be starting since the rest are not here yet and I'm still waiting. Yeah, so that's that. I really don't know what will happen tonight but I'm sure looking forward for it.

On a more different note, I just can't seem to understand how some people can be so full of BULLSHIT. Oh, and they also looooove to say this phrase 'I don't know' repeatedly. OMG! Make up your mind! Decide! I know it's not easy to make a decision sometimes but the answer is right in front of your eyes. Gee, don't tell me your eyes are not where its suppose to be? Full of bullshit, unreasonable, unconsiderate....ERGH!!!!!............You're suprised that just came from my mouth? Hah? I'm not your typical two-goody-goody-good-shoe. Bleh...

Trigger Happy

2006-05-11T01:48:00.000-07:00

Some say I've gone crazy, some say the old me is back and some say it's the new me. Which one is it? I don't know. You tell me. Since you are the ones who see me for who I am. And you may know me better than I myself do. "Ring", only two of you know what I'm referring too. The sms, only one of you knows about it. Have I made you confused? If I have, good. If I didn't, too bad. I'll try harder. LOL...

The Harvest Festival month, it's the time to be merry and get wasted...LOL...Will be having a lot of fun this month with birthday celebrations and movie marathon and karaoke sessions and of cos drinking sessions...I can't wait to just do all that but most of all it's the company that I'm looking forward too. It feels like I've been missing a lot of things lately. Maybe it's because I'm used to seeing certain people almost everyday and some of them twice or thrice in a month. I can't promise everyone I'll be seeing them cause I myself have my own agenda but whatever it takes I'll surely be meeting them. I mean, common, THIS IS SIMONE, right?

2006-05-08T00:48:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RACHEL SANTANI!

Save me

2006-05-04T22:08:00.000-07:00

Life has been pretty boring, tiring, wet, cold, sleepy and most of all I'm BROKE. I sooooo hope my allowance is coming in soon. Classes have been boring too. There's particular nothing to do in class. Sometimes, it feels like we're attending class just to be there (kasih panas tu krusi saja). Like today, we started class around 9.30am and ended at 10.45am and finished the whole of module no 6. Then the lecturer cancelled class in the afternoon. Mind you, classes are suppose to be from 9am-12pm and 1-4pm. Most of my classmates were VERY happy. Not that I don't like going home early. But I drove today, so wasting my fuel and $$$ for parking fee and also my time. It was so hard for me to wake up this morning. If only I knew earlier that attending the class today was a waste of my time I would have slept in. This is what happens if your lecturer is only 27 years old (sorry!). Oh and he lied about being 30. He's actually only going to be 27 this July. How I know? He confessed to the class.

In case you're wondering, no I didn't go home after class. Instead, I hangout with my colleagues and went for a movie. Watched MI:III. It was not never my attention to watch this movie but the majority wanted to watch it. The movie was just ok for me. Some parts were slow and the script was kind of boring. Besides, I'm not a Tom Cruise fan. There, I've said it.

Potential

2006-04-30T00:58:00.000-07:00

tu mata yang mau tutuuuuup sudah.....
look at my dark circles, panda look-a-like oh.....anyone has any remedy for dark circles? please help......DESPERATE!!!

Choir wedding yesterday was all good though there were hick-ups here and there. Comment from the priest, the best choir I've heard...kambang...

Went for shopping on wednesday and movie, ultraviolet...aiyo, dunno what else to blog about la...

Restless and tired....

2006-04-22T14:10:00.000-07:00

I do not want to be the bangas-est blog so here I am blogging. Oh, by the way, HAPPY EASTER! So I've started class again. Yes, I know I have no better things to do then going to classes. I'm doing the SLG course in ATI in Tourist Guide and Event Management. Yes, not related to my degree at all. Enough questions. The classes so far so good but it's getting boring cos the lecturer is slowing down. Oh, my lecturer is only 30 and it is a HE. Anyone interested?

Been really busy with choir practises and trying to keep up with my sleep. Been looking like a panda lately actually very close to looking like one. Not forgetting assignments and I have to do a lot of reading which I don't have the time for it too. Aiyo, I so need my social life back. Need to hangout with the AA's(now who could I be referrin' too), need to do shopping cos my closet looks boring, hanging out with my gang keras is a must - just that I would have to find the time for it, not forgetting going to the movies cos I'm so outdated and people who want's to hang with me, please feel free to give me a buzz or just simply text me for a chat is just fine.

2006-04-02T03:00:00.000-07:00

Spend money to earn money...LOL...stupid thinking I know. Bought 2 pairs of pants and 1 blouse at Vunfa on Thursday with 1 of my gang keras. It has been long since I went shopping. But my shopping journey was kind of short. It was like one shop and I was done.

Have you ever felt like you just had to do it? Well I have and I don't regret it one bit. Actually I'm very happy that I did it. Went for dinner with 2 of my gang keras at Four Seasons, Damai. I, for one, was starving and when our food came we ate in almost total silence. I guess everyone was hungry cos we had finger food and we finished it too. It was fun hanging out with them again. After all the food, we had more energy talking, laughing and gossiping and just simply remembering the old times and updating each other with one's life. However, it was weird having an empty chair at the table. Somehow, I felt incomplete. But I can't blame anyone. I only can accept it the way it is. Later went to Tg Aru and found out that one of my junior was singing there and she looked and sound good. She even waved at us and the audience turned their heads towards our direction. Embarassing moments.

Car chase anyone? Here's how it all started,
E: Why is this guy keep looking at us?
Me: Huh?
E: Ni kreta sbelah ba, sia tingu trus dia smile nie...ish...Macam yang penyanyi Estranged tu tapi bukan la...
Me: (Glance over to the next ) Eh, bukan perempuan ka tu?
E: Bukan la. Lelaki ba tu. Dia macam ada misai nie (touching her chin)
Me: Ok. I didn't see his face but his hair is long la.
So I stepped on it but suddenly the guy overtook us.
Me: Sialan...I'm not going next to him. Nanti dia tingu lagi. Eh, kreta baru oh. K lagi tu.
E: (giggle)...ya leks ja di blakang dia...oh mo ingat nie number dia SAA****K.
Green light. Found space to overtake him and the chase began. The adrenaline rush was fun. I'm pretty sure E was scared. I was scared to but...
E: Oh rait man. Jauh-jauh dari dia.
Me: (Concentrating on the road when...)
Suddenly I noticed a car behind me overtaking a lot of other cars
Me: S***! Dia kejar! Dia kejar!
E: (laughing) Betul ba? Betul ba? Mana sudah dia?
Me: (pointing to the right) Sini sbelah sia. Dia dekat sudah (car in front was slow) S***!!!!! (started to laugh already) Dia di sbelah skarang. S***!!!!!
E: Doi....dia tingu ka?....(laughing) Doi... Dia di sbelah ja tu....(still laughing)...tingu...
Me: (Laughing) I'm not going to look. I'm not going to look. Sia tidak kama mau tingu....
So I slowed down and let him and his friend pass us. After sometime, I guess they didn't want to play anymore so I overtook them again and hoped and prayed that they wouldn't chase and would go back to Penampang.
E: Dorang masih kejar kah?
Me: Dorang masih di blakang la tapi dorang tidak kejar. Oh..ada satu kreta overtake dia sudah
E: (laughing)..doi...jangan ja sampai Dongs..
Me: OMG....I HOPE NOT...
Luckily for us they turned to Lintas.
Me: I CAN'T BELIEVE I JUST DID THAT.....DOI!!!!!
E: Ya ba...sia pun...trus dis stay lagi di sbelah tu tadi...doi..(laughing)
Silent moment..........
Me: (Laughing)...I can't believe I just did that.
E&Me:...LOL.....

2006-03-29T22:17:00.000-08:00

One can never have too much of shower gel. Especially when it's on sales.

I'd like to 'TAG' Ethel and Lus Clues.
Please do this for me http://kevan.org/johari?name=cmone
Thank you.

Currently chatting with my baby friend who's in NZ :D and my gang keras. Yesterday was chatting with a long lost friend who's currently in UK, 2 of my gang keras and a cousin who apprently likes to bully me online.

Rain, cold.....

2006-03-28T23:02:00.000-08:00

Don't know why but my mouth has been a bit 'salty' since last week cos everytime I say something it will eventually happen. It makes me feel like I'm a 'jinxer'. The weather has been evil. During the day it's REALLY hot and sometimes at night it's REALLY cold like now. It rained today since this afternoon til now. It would be nice to sleep. I'm actually feeling sleepy already...yawn... Of all the days I went out today. Someone was so kacian lor. Very hungry somemore. Went to 4 seasons but closed. Instead we went to this called Pizza Zia in Damai. Not a bad place to eat. Nice environment. Ended up having 2nd lunch for me. Super full by the time we got to CB. It was cold since it was raining. Even when we, 3 of us actually, laughed our hearts out too it didn't help.

Just for

2006-03-24T18:58:00.000-08:00

This is baby Zeya looking stunned but adorable.....

This is baby Peanuts with his God Father. Apparently he didn't cry at all. No funny faces too. I guess it was REALLY comfortable. Oh btw, that's not his 'where's my mummy look'.

Old times, good times

2006-03-21T22:30:00.000-08:00

Alright, alright. I'll stop with the song lyrics. It was just something I wanted to do cos I really got hooked to those songs. Been having back pains lately. I think too much of sitting in front of the laptop. Not forgetting my sleepless nights is on again. Aiyo...Why is all this happening to me now? I don't know. Why suddenly people around me have all sorts of problems? I don't know. Why some people think so negative of themselves? I don't know. Why do they think so much? I don't know. Why can't they be honest? I don't know. Why can't they accept the fact? I don't know. Why won't they understand? I don't know. Why do I worry so much? I don't know. Why do I feel that someone is avoiding me? I don't know. Why am I writing all this? I don't know.

Went to the old house in Dabak today. Brought back a lot of good ol' memories. Was sitting outside at the varanda chatting with Popo while Ata Mira was korek-ing the anak pisang to plant at Tanaki garden. Popo and I were chatting about how nice it would be to stay there again cos everyone is staying nearby. During the old times, the neneks will come and cook all sorts of dishes especially when Ata Mira is around and the akungs will come for coffee and story time. The aunties and uncles (cousins), however, will come just to lepak at the house and of cos to play with me (the cutest and most adorable little girl alive, kopi killer and kadu - PERASAN). If not at my Popo's old house, then it would be at Toy's house on a Sunday. More like every Sunday actually. The neneks will cook and gamble. The akungs will either play cards or simply talk. The aunties and uncles (cousins) will either play video games or climb up a tree or make mud cakes or play hide and seek or bubut-bubut. Some aunties and uncles (cousins) actually have cute nicknames too, like Mogly, Liang Liang, Tong Hing and some others. Sing with me, memories, all alone in the moonlight...

2006-03-21T00:49:00.000-08:00

I hope I'll receive a BIG hug and thank you for putting this song up in here. If I don't, then I do not want to do food delivery anymore :p

Pretty Vegas by INXS

Fallin’ asleep at the wheel again baby,
You’re driftin’ over the line.
You’re hands are tied, but you’re losin’ grip quickly
Fix me, can you read the sign…

Thumbin’ your way to Vegas, dirty
Dreamin’ like ya outta control
Save your tears and laughter coz
This is the ride, this is the show

It ain’t pretty
After the show…
It ain’t pretty when the pretty leaves you
With no place to go.
So, if you think you need it,
Here’s the place to feed it…
It ain’t pretty.

When, everything that you do is wrong,
And you
Feel like you can barely survive…
When those around you
Are crumblin’ downwards
Buried in the sunset of life.

Thumbin’ your way to Vegas, dirty
And screamin’ like a bitch from hell,

Save your dreams
And occupations
Doesn’t matter what you sell…

It ain’t pretty
After the show
It ain’t pretty when the pretty leaves you
With no place to go…
So, if you think you want it…
Here’s the place to get it,
It ain’t pretty

Yeah, yeah, yeah
It ain’t pretty…
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Thumbin’ your way to Vegas, dirty
Dreamin’ like you’re out of control,
Save your tears and laughter
Because this is the ride…
And this is the show…

It ain’t pretty
After the show…
It ain’t pretty when the pretty leaves you
With no place to go
So, if you think you want it
Just come in and get it
It ain’t pretty…

Don't be sad. I'm just being jiwang...LOL!!!

2006-03-19T02:33:00.000-08:00

I fell in love with this song the first time I heard it. And now my brain is spinning this song over and over again. I know this song may be sad but there are some truth in the lyrics. Oh and the melody is actually pretty sad too. Maybe it's time someone out there recommend me some happy songs *smiles*...

I Can't Make You Love Me by Bonnie Raitt

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don’t patronize - don’t patronize me

Chorus: cause I can’t make you love me if you don’t
You can’t make your heart feel something it won’t
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and I’ll feel the power
But you won’t, no you won’t
’cause I can’t make you love me, if you don’t

I’ll close my eyes, then I won’t see
The love you don’t feel when you’re holding me
Morning will come and I’ll do what’s right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

Chorus: cause I can’t make you love me if you don’t
You can’t make your heart feel something it won’t
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and I’ll feel the power
But you won’t, no you won’t
’cause I can’t make you love me, if you don’t

2006-03-19T02:25:00.000-08:00

Heard this song from ROCKSTAR INXS sang by Marty Casey. Fell in love with it. Simply a beautiful song.

Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd

So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees? Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change? And did you exchange
a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year,
running over the same old ground. What have we found?
The same old fears,
wish you were here.

Sing with me

2006-03-19T02:10:00.000-08:00

And finally a happy song with a very catchy tune...

Trees by Marty Casey

I dont want to go through this life
Without you by my side.
And I've got it all worked out
In my head here's how it's got to be.

It'll be you and me up in the trees
And the forest will give us the answers.
(That's right.)

We will make believe
In a world we rule together.
We can build our dreams
With the knot tied tight(?) to last forever.

It'll be you and me up in the trees
And the forest will give us the answers.
It'll be you and I up in the sky
It's a combination for disaster.

(yeahyeahyeah..) We got one shot
So where do we go from here?

It'll be you and me up in the trees
And the forest will give us the answers.
It'll be you and I up in the sky
It's a combination for disaster.

And I know there's more for us in this life....

Just feel like pinching myself

2006-03-14T00:19:00.000-08:00

Went to visit Peanuts this evening. He's sooooo cute. I carried him for awhile before he went crying looking for his mum. Koala bear la katakan. But he did laugh at me. CUTE!!!!! Grigritan I...pinch, pinch, pinch...

I think I'll have to eventually send food to Ibu's house cos the Bapa, for the first time in my life said this 'if u sayang your UNCLE, you would send me food'.....He fiiiiinally admits that he is an uncle to me. All this while when I call him 'uncle', he would either pinch my cheeks or beg me not to call him uncle. Love you..... LOL.....

Note: Sorry Vira, this is not a long entry that u hoped for. Don't know what to blog about. Well, actually nothing interesting happened la. Maybe next time I'll write a long entry just for you, alright?

The odes are in

2006-03-12T12:23:00.000-08:00

The top 12 of Idol 5 is out. 10 out my top 12 is in but I'm quite disappointed that Gedeon is not cos I think he can sing better that Kevin and Bucky. I wonder why don't the viewers listen to Simon Cowell's comment. With Ayla, I think she chose the wrong song. But I'm ok with Kellie. I think she's adorable.

Here's the final top 12:
Chris, Ace, Elliot, Taylor, Bucky, Kevin, Paris, Lisa, Katherina, Mandisa, Melissa and Kellie.

Sigh.....

2006-03-09T18:54:00.000-08:00

I've just confirmed something today that is, we (cigu, mkys mommy, toy, lue clues, sel, stra, ibu and i) will not be cutting our hair til the end of this year. Aduhai... I wonder whether everyone can resist the temptation.

Today...was the day...not a very good day...aku sendiri pun tak paham pa yang ku tulis ini...in other words, a kacian day for cigu and i cos we had to make 2 rounds of parking search in damai. And when we finally have a spot, guess what happened? There's 2 spot RIGHT in front of the bank.....ggggrrrrrrr..... When you're very hungry, suddenly the shops that u want to go is NOT open...sigh...

Not enough

2006-03-06T23:14:00.000-08:00

I'm scared I'm scared. Want to know why? Well, everyone in the house is sick EXCEPT for meeee. So yes, I'm tiring my best not be infected by the viruses. Food also have to be separated which means I have to look for my own food. Sad. Today I washed my own clothes. Yes I do know how to wash my own clothes. I was very sure that it was going to rain since I washed my own clothes but instead the sun was shining brightly. Cooked porridge for dinner and it wasn't enough. Sigh. Suddenly everyone in the house wants to eat my cooking, when they are sick.

Who i think should be

2006-03-04T00:54:00.000-08:00

Been watching American Idol and here's my top 12 list.

Guys:
Chris, Ace, Sway, Elliot, Taylor and Gedeon

Ladies:
Paris, Lisa, Katherine, Mandisa, Ayla and Melissa

Let's just see how many of them end up being the top 12.

Same 'ol Same 'ol

2006-02-28T14:31:00.000-08:00

There's nothing much to do today, well cleaning my room would be a good start.
Couldn't sleep again last night. It has been a couple of nights that I'm having this problem.
Had lunch with Candida yesterday at Mcd's Karamunsing. Will be having another lunch date with her and Ivy this week before she leaves for Singapore.
I miss hanging out with my gang keras. I wonder when will we be able to group again.
I want to play gin rummy, but that'll have to wait till after Easther. Not so sure whether cukup kaki or not.
I want to watch movies like, Main-main Cinta, Fun with Dick & Jane, Big Momma's House 2, Firewall & Derailed. Anyone kind enough to accompany me?

Wishing You

2006-02-27T21:42:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday to You,

Happy Birthday to Marinette Baltazar @ Nenette,

Happy Birthday to YOU!

Just for the heck of it

2006-02-26T01:59:00.000-08:00

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You Especially Like to Torment: Dentists

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Superstition

2006-02-26T01:15:00.000-08:00

My right eyelid have been twitching for about 3 days nows and it's really getting on my nerves cos from time to time it will suddenly bergegar. I'm NOT superstitious. I remember my friends telling me about this eyelid twitching thingy. It's suppose to mean something good and bad. Friend A: Left = bad, right = good. Friend B: Upper eyelids = good, (your eyesbags) = bad. And again I say, I'm NOT superstitious.

Been watching American Idol. I'm a bit sad that Stevie and Patrick are out. I think Patrick can sing compared to some of the contestants and Stevie, well I just like watching her. She's so sweet. Bobby chose a wrong song to perform.

Watch Pink Panther with Cigu on Friday. The movie is really funny. Was laughing from beginning to end.

*giggling*
Blur me: (looks to my right)...Are you laughing?
Giggling Cigu: uhuh
Blur me: You're already laughing before the movie starts?
Giggling Cigu: (giggles louder)..uhuh
...and the giggling continues and later changed to laugher, which I joined in.

Girls Night Out

2006-02-17T23:46:00.000-08:00

Had dinner with my 'aunties' (mesti ada yang feel oldies... kiang kiang kiang) last night at Four Seasons. The food was nice but macam I tida kenyang. As usual, we were the MOST bisingess and gilaess group, taking pictures like mad paparazzies - especially with our special guest flown aaaaaaall the way from Penang. Even Peanuts was giving us his 'cute kepoh look'. After dinner went to Just Waiting Cafe and had Blackcurrent Banana Milk Shake, where 3 makciks of mine had this to say about the drink, "Eh, macam pisang amas oh. Pisang amas ka they use this?", "Ya, pisang amas, pisang amas, LOL". Yeah, that's my family alright.

Lepaked at Cigu's house today and kacau-ed her doing her homework...ekeke...also controlled her pc to compile the ROCKSTAR INXS songs, which only consist of Marty, Jordis and MiG. And now I'm actually watching Rockstar INXS...LOL...sot...

Note to Il Divo fans: 20.02.2006 (Mon) tune in to Channel [V] at 11pm

Just to say...

2006-02-14T14:31:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's day everyone!

Bloated....

2006-02-12T14:54:00.000-08:00

Karaoke on Friday night was terrible.

High Papa: (piak...hits me...) Eh, kau cari kama tu cd tu lagu na..na..na..na..na..na..(to the tune of Can't take my eyes off of you). Kacian juga si Rachel. Disappointeeeeed.....dia tu.
Silent me: Ba... Nanti sia pigi cari tu cd ah?

Was suppose to go for gin session last night but I didn't go cos I was tired and sleepy. Attended a wedding function of a very close relative of mine and stuffed myself good.

Shall we?

2006-02-10T11:22:00.000-08:00

It's Chap Goh Meh this Sunday (12 Feb) which means it's the last day of CNY. When are we going to play GIN again? My tangan gatal already this....

Tonight, karaoke session with me Papa at E-West, Cikgu and Toy and others I think....

Rain rain go away....

2006-02-09T21:31:00.000-08:00

It has been raining for 4 days now and it's really COLD. Me sakit tulang already cos cannot tahan the cold. Usage of fan and air-con has reduced, therefore, electric bill also reduced lor.

America's Next Top Model Cycle 4
on Channel [V]

Every Monday at 8pm
Repeats
Tuesdays at 2am & 4pm
Wednesdays at 5am
Thursdays at 7am, 3pm & 10pm
Fridays at 4am & 9pm
Saturdays at 12pm
Sundays at 3am. 1pm & 11pm
Mondays at 8am & 2pm

Kids... Don't you just love them?

2006-02-06T16:06:00.000-08:00

Mmm... Not so sure which one is more trigger happy to have thier picture taken.

Here's a picture where everyone is happy ot have their picture taken.
Finally Peanuts is not crying while A.Selina is carrying him.
Cute or scary? You tell me.....

We sure love to pose.....

2006-02-06T01:38:00.000-08:00

Missing one great poser...
Mums fault cos she asked Archie to spoil the picture. Brady (Yapp) Bunch....

Confusing

2006-02-04T16:25:00.000-08:00

When I'm being a 'good' girl and stay home.
Papa: Eh, you didn't go out today? Last night also u didn't go out kan?
Big eyed me: ...........................

When I want to go out.
Me: Pa, I want to go out. Can ah?
Papa: Go out again? U gooooooo out only.
Me (smiles away): ...........................

Question: I stay home my Papa 'noisy'. I go out also my Papa 'noisy'. So how la this?

Another round of gin last night. At first I lost then I won back but I still lost lor. Luckily not that much. Joey punya pasal la tu (sorry Joey...LOL...). Came home this morning at 2.30am and my parents didn't know I'm home until this afternoon when they wanted to have lunch without meeee. Luckily I woke up or else I wouldn't have any food.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

2006-02-01T23:32:00.000-08:00

GONG XI FA CHAI! I know it's kinda late but CNY is 15 days mah...

Saturday: Lots of food but I think I didn't eat enough cos by midnight I was hungry already. Played gin (new set lor) till 4am but reached home at 7.30am (Sunday morning). Photo taking sessions were frustrating because there were lots of distractions but I think this year we had some really funny poses. The whole family was really KEPOH about being in The Star "all smiles away".

Sunday: Went for lunch at Sepanggar (Papa's side) then in the evening went for early dinner at N.Tondu's place and at night continued with gin, which I lost a lot by the way, where we were all amazed by the REALLY shiny tiles and noticed that it was 5am (Monday morning)

Monday: Went for emergency shopping with Ethel for baby Jonna's 1 year old birthday present. Had open house and birthday party invitation at Eve's place. Then had to come home early cos my family had something on too. Karaoke session was on by the time I got back and ended around 1 something.

Tuesday: Went for gin again at 5pm but this time I got home just after midnight. Why? Because I lost again lor and I was driving lor...sigh...

Wednesday (Today): Had yam cha session with two of my gang keras, Ethel and Eve, at Yoyo Lintas.
Note to someone: Remember to pull the car key from the ignition next time :-)

2006-01-26T23:23:00.000-08:00

Was suppose to watch Memoirs of a Geisha yesterday but instead we (Cikgu, Lus Clues and myself) were on a mission to look for a Ginrammy set. Well, it is the CNY season so we need to gamble and we need a set cos we don't have one. Borrowed adalah. The journey began from Karamunsing to the new Bestmart in Kolombong (which everyone had something to buy) and then we found the set at Servay Likas. Haven't got it yet so there's no point of being excited.

Oh.....the night didn't end there. We suddenly had a call from Aunty Kokoi and went to this place in Damai called E-West for beer and pool and karaoke. Made new friends with Jia Yi. Karaoke session was ok-ok la but the pool session was horrible. I forgot that the 8 ball I was only suppose to hit it last instead I hit it 2nd ... fail ... confirm I don't have the Yapp's blood for pool playing.
Note to Mommy Ruth: Let there be a pool table in the new house.

2006-01-24T23:17:00.000-08:00

Chinese New Year is coming...more like erm Wednesday, Thursday. Friday, SATURDAY........
Went shopping last Saturday with A.Rachel and A.Abelle and then met up with N.Eng and then U.Gordon and Peanuts came and then A.Ruth and the kids came. I was the one who was suppose to shop cos I don't have the Mandarin Collar blouse yet but A.Rachel and A.Abelle were the ones happily trying on clothes...LOL...it was fun watching them...Finally, got one shirt for me when Cikgu and I went to Wisma Merdeka. Got to church just in time but I wasn't allowed to go out again after church and for that I apologise to my gang keras. Ok la actually, I didn't ask my parents for permission cos I knew the answer already...so better don't ask in order to avoid war...Had yam cha session with Ethel at our favourite spot, Ching Fa (sana Dongonggon jak ba tu) on Sunday.

If you want to go to KK this week, don't even think of driving. Better ask someone to drop you off only cos KK is PACKED. Oh, btw, I got my Mandarin Collar blouse already heheheh... Which means for this CNY I have 5 new tops kuang, kuang, kuang.....

Was watching Rockstar INXS again today...more like just now... and I was impressed with MiG for being able to sing Walk This Way by Aerosmith. But I must say (surely kena bomb by Cikgu) , now I know why JD won and why wasn't he kicked out everytime he's at the bottom 3. He's really good at rearranging the music from the original to make it his own. I must say I like his music style.... But I personally like Marty (my uncle...Uncle Marty....LOL)....S.T.U.P.D.....