Parental Advisory
I hate having these negative feelings in me because it's bad for me and those around me. I'll start screaming or saying bad words and it happened today. Right now I really don't care what you think of me. I don't care if you feel cheated. I REALLY DON'T CARE because you don't seem to care how I feel when you do something wrong towards me. What assumptions have I made that is wrong? For all I know, I don't assume. When I'm assuming, I'll say it out, I assume ... But right now, I'm not assuming anything because it happened right in front of my eyes and it's STILL happening. So, what assumptions are there?
To call you stupid, I don't think that's appropriate because you have proper education and I'm very sure your parents thought you about life very well. What went wrong? Or where did it go wrong?
Why do some people can't see everything from left to right, up and down and vise versa? Why can't they take a minute and think of the other persons point of view or their feelings? Can't they NOT think of themselves for one second? I guess not. Maybe I should be like them. Then I would be happy always. No worries. No problems. Only think of myself. That wouldn't be so bad. Right?
I hate it when you say you are NOT doing it but actually YOU ARE. I don't know whether you don't realise it or you're just being in denial. Is it that bad when someone close to you corrects you? FUCK!!! You people always say these, 'Simone is kind', 'She's caring', 'She's an angel', to me it's all BULLSHIT! Why? What's the point of saying all these when you have NO heart at all to do anything with me? How do you think that makes me feel? I'll tell you. I'm FUCKIN PISSED OFF, I feel taken for granted, heartbroken, hurt and mad. I feel dysfunctional right now. I don't know what else should I think or feel because it hurts so bad. It's like I'm in a garden full of blooming rare flowers then suddenly all the flowers wilts and dies and falls and my surrounding turns into dark and cold and scary.
'Sorry seems to be the hardest word'. Really? But for you it's really easy to say it out. I wonder whether it comes from sincerity from within or it's just..........
STOP TELLING ME!!!!! I know I should forget about all that have been said here but will it heal completely or will it leave a scar?
To call you stupid, I don't think that's appropriate because you have proper education and I'm very sure your parents thought you about life very well. What went wrong? Or where did it go wrong?
Why do some people can't see everything from left to right, up and down and vise versa? Why can't they take a minute and think of the other persons point of view or their feelings? Can't they NOT think of themselves for one second? I guess not. Maybe I should be like them. Then I would be happy always. No worries. No problems. Only think of myself. That wouldn't be so bad. Right?
I hate it when you say you are NOT doing it but actually YOU ARE. I don't know whether you don't realise it or you're just being in denial. Is it that bad when someone close to you corrects you? FUCK!!! You people always say these, 'Simone is kind', 'She's caring', 'She's an angel', to me it's all BULLSHIT! Why? What's the point of saying all these when you have NO heart at all to do anything with me? How do you think that makes me feel? I'll tell you. I'm FUCKIN PISSED OFF, I feel taken for granted, heartbroken, hurt and mad. I feel dysfunctional right now. I don't know what else should I think or feel because it hurts so bad. It's like I'm in a garden full of blooming rare flowers then suddenly all the flowers wilts and dies and falls and my surrounding turns into dark and cold and scary.
'Sorry seems to be the hardest word'. Really? But for you it's really easy to say it out. I wonder whether it comes from sincerity from within or it's just..........
STOP TELLING ME!!!!! I know I should forget about all that have been said here but will it heal completely or will it leave a scar?
posted by simone at 11:30 PM
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walau ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......
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